Just got back from the club like an hour ago! Had a GREAT time. I wild out, as usual. It was cool tho. But someone was there who I haven't spoke about in a minute.
Yes...Lexis Jade Ross (my ex) was there. Realized and was reminded a few things....
1) She's fine as hell
2) Her friends are ass holes and know completely nothing about our situation
3) I'm easily attracted to her more than any other female I've ever encountered
4) Her friends are ass holes
5) She has NO idea what she wants or what she's doing
6) If she keep fuckin up I'ma stop feelin this way about her
7) I love her
8) She has unholy heartlessly hurt many times in our past
9) She's sexy as fuck!
10) It's time we stop fuckin around and get back together....
It blows [||] cuz it's not that easy.....AT ALL. and it shouldn't be to be completely honest. If we end up back together then that should be it... real talk. I know I'm still a lil drunk, but that only means I speak the truth and could give even more of a fuck less what people think. I could marry her. Not on some puppy love shit. She's perfect type shit. The sex is GREAT type shit (can't front tho ;-D). But on some " we basically lived together for months on in, and I loved every minute of it" type shit. I mean no doubt was she my first love. No doubt, do I compare every girl I see and see their weaknesses/faults, to her perfect body/personality (besides the fact, she can swallow her heart and pretend like we were never together sometimes...but shit, what girl don't trip in some kind of way???). And No doubt did I take my near "perfect" life for granted when we were together. I put perfect in " "" " because no one's life is perfect ("If I was Kanye I wouldn't have these problems/ but then I'd have Kanye's problems" - Joe Budden), everybody got problems. But shit, it seems like when shit is goin good you never know the shit is goin good till shit starts goin bad. I guess it's just life....BUT DAMN!!!!
I don't know. I'm sick of being the "I want you back" nigga. But it's hard to be the "I don't need you!!!" nigga... After being with the bitch (On some Charles Hamilton shit. She know she was my bitch, she can front....no disrespect tho) for 3 years, shit is difficult. I kinda NEED affection aka attention from a female. Which is gay as shit if you ask me. But I'm gettin better with that....considerin I'm not gay...at all
No offense to anyone gay...Just not me. And really wanna stop thinkin about it, so that's all for that.
But anyway....Ol' girl is tryin to front on a nigga. I been spillin my heart to her every other day for the past month and a half and made no progress. So I decided to take another approach. FUCK HER TILL SHE SEE WHAT SHE MISSIN. Seems like it will work. Never tried it, so it'll be tough, but I gotta do what I gotta do.
Kinda fuckin myself up if she reads this...not sure if she does or not. Oh well. This is my blog....also known as my diary, also known as my shit, so I can vent as much as I fuckin want on whatever the fuck I want...lol that's pretty dope right? lol yeah go head and hit a "vent" post on your blog. I promise you'll feel a lot better.
Aight....Got my shit out. Hope I didn't bore you....
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY
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Thursday, May 14, 2009
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8 comments:
Dealing with females in a strong situation like that, is like playing chess. Gotta make sure your next move is your best. I hate to say that its kinda on some mind game playing shit but it always come back to that.
I tell you one thing though, you right about chillin on the "I want you back" role.
Females don't go to the niggas that they just can pick back up whenever. Gotta leave in there head that the fact is, there are other options. Be coo with her but give the "I'm starting to lose interest if you gonna play like this" vibe. Be the mature person in this.
My bad homie for trying to invite my on advise but I been in your spot and kinda still in one like yours so it caught my eye. pause
Stay up my dude.
aw naw bro I appreciate it. But yeah I'm doin what I gotta do and have doin it pretty good. Just when I saw her last night, it kinda fucked me up a lil when I got home, as you can tell lol. but good lookin homie. for real. And good luck with your situation.
nigga... you gotta chill. i've already given my two cents. i don't really know your ex like that... but i do know that women play games. playing them back doesn't work. just play your position. do your own thing. when she realizes she wants you back then hopefully you'll still care... if she never comes to that realization then you still got 800,000,000 other jumpoffs to run through. when me and my ex-dumb ass went through all our shit I fucked sooooooooooo many bitches...
try it. see how it works out for you.
LOL I dig what you saying but I don't wanna catch that burn lol. I'm good tho. I just got a lil emotional last night. But I'm playin my position like Derek Jeter right now lol I got you
your similes suck.
that was one of those "lame on purpose" similes. I forgot you have no sense of humor you peasant.
lmao he said he fucked sooooo many bitchs ahaha i literally lol'ed
and u called him a peasant ahahahaha im dying.
hmmm.... should I respond?
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