Stress Reliever

Ok so I'm not feeling good at all right now. This shit with my ex is killing me. Let me catch yall up....

so we havent been together for about a week and on Saturday we were both at this party...drunk. Everythings cool, we talked a few times and stuff and I didn't ever get mad or do any dumb shit for her attention. to make a long story short, we ended up leaving together. Kissing on the car ride home and everything, then got home and I'm sure yall know how that goes. The next morning (Easter) we woke up, like wow, last night was crazy, but fun as hell. And we're GOOD, i mean I'm makin her laugh, flirting and all, then I take her to her car and she tells me she'll talk to me and all, which she didnt too much of for the past week. We talk all day and when I go to my moms crib with 2 of my friends, my brother and his girl she's telling me that she feels left out cuz she used to be the one that was always with my family and friends with me.

After I got home, I asked a girl that was at her party with her about a week ago the day before we broke up, if this dude she took a picture with was tryin to get at her. She was like "hell yeah! but nothin happened." so of course i still get mad because they was all flirty and shit when we were still together. Confront her about it, she doesn't understand, she gets pissed and now we're back at square one after we had another arguement today and now she won't talk to me.

If I could let her go, I prolly would. But I can't and honestly I don't want to. I'm in love with her, I know she's the one for me, so I can't stop. This is the first, second, or third time we've been thru this. Way more times than I can count, so I know its just a matter of time before we get back together, but that doesn't take away the pain I have from being alone and not her, my best friend, in my life. Right now, Im writing a song about her and the situation. I haven't done this since the first time she broke up with me. I hope that she listens (if I record it, if not Ill just send her the lyrics) and sees my point of view and realizes she's making a mistake. I just hope this gets together before she or I do something we regret. A lot of times it takes her to talk to another boy and hang out with them to realize that they aren't me, but i don't want that to happen. I don't if she reads my blog or not, but I just gotta fix this shit. So if we end up talking before the nights over, i'll let yall know what it is, if not, I may be doing the same shit tomorrow.......

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