The Title...

Ok, let me explain myself and tell why my blog is titled "Living with Untamed Emotion, Passion, & Distraction."

I am an internal guy, which means a lot of my feelings and thoughts are kept inside and aren't expressed too much to people. Because of that, my emotions run wild. I am very emotional internally and externally, and that makes me very passionate. If I don't like something or don't want something to happen, it can throw me off. Like, totally off my game...sometimes I let my emotions say and do things I regret. Sometimes, It makes me want to just quit what I'm doing and other times it makes me want to do whatever it takes to fix it.

I can remember back to first grade, when the whole class would come up with words with the same sounds and things (ex. ch- words like cheese, chill, chat) and at the end we would have to write all of them down. Every one in my class would finish this in class but I could never finish it because I couldn't concentrate and focus on it. My imagination and attention span is crazy and I can spend an hour easily thinking about something that reminds me of something else and that makes me think of something else and so on. So, to fix this I had to look at the person setting next to me and to myself, I had to try to race them and finish before them. I think that's why I love playing video games playing sports because its a constant show, with this happening and then this happening so fast. The problem is, is that this kills my school work because I can't focus in class. It causes me to be late all the time, being occupied by something or forgetting stuff all the time.

Where the these intertwine is something that made really realized these qualities of mine. I started taking this medication for my ADD about two months ago. It started to help me focus a little better, but I would have crazy mood swings. I mean, seriously like going from being cool to being pissed over NOTHING! I would be on my way home from school, which is a time when you should probably be pretty happy because your going home, I would just be frustrated and in a terrible mood.

So now, I'm on my third different medication trying to take care of this. But too fix the side effects from this sh*t I found another medication that I can overdose on as much as want....MUSIC. I am downloading a new album/mixtape everyday to my iPod and my headphones are on my ears anytime I have time to myself.

This is not battle I'm fighting, It's a war and it's going to last for the rest of my life. What I have to do is find the best to handle and take of my business right now so I can set up a career and life that I am more than satisfied with.....

So, there you have it. If you got any other question about me, don't hesitate to ask. I love getting feedback and answering questions about myself because it helps me see myself from another view....

Tame ya self people!

Happy Aaron's Day